A diary,
you opened me,
pristine and blank,
left your ink
indelibly engrained
upon my leaves.
Weaved philtres
through my reams,
I reeled, felt
true blue bruise,
the tattooed weal,
my vellum wound.
Presumed us safe
yet now I see you kept
your brittle carapace
in place,
self-protecting,
unlike me, inept.
I wept, felt duped
for your integrity
proved dubious,
hoped foolishly,
you would be my master,
I your maid.
Dismayed, my
brave servility
self sacrificed,
I closed myself,
threw away the key
before your cock crow’d thrice.
Tagged: Human relationships, loss, love, memory, poem, sadness
I prefer the ending in this latest draft – makes more sense. The only lines I’m not sure about are:
inveterately,
so literately
spelt throughout
I think the line breaks work apart from:
as you swirled in with/night and snowflakes
and:
such bravely/learned servility
Thanks 😉 God- I don’t know why I’m pursuing this bugger. I just somehow want to capture it. Nail it!
I think this version of the 3rd stanza is the best yet.
In the 4th stanza ‘I’d’ instead of ‘I had’ would improve the rhythm.
Yes, sometimes a work in progress will get under my skin (and some remain unfinished – it’s a growing folder!)
I think I’m beginning to like it now- I just ditched the first stanza- it sounded horrible…